Learn to Learn PERIOD

certain people usually ask their certain acquaintances, on what is what and which is which,when it comes to goals and accomplishments. my friend once told me into a social networking that certainty on a particular goal is that not important but what is important most is what you have become in attaining that certain goal.

after 5 years,1 high school graduation 5 different courses and different school, i still manage to end up where i started and the weird part is i am starting all over again. without a degree, without a job and the worst part is without someone that will at least comfort me on this nightmare, however i still manage to manage.

as i continue to read my blog again without anyone reading it except my DWCL friend who i think forgot me that i was her friend. i suddenly realized or at least question myself..from all the things that i have been through and the bad and good events that i have experienced then it strike me: WHAT HAVE I LEARN?

i have learn that some people tend to be pretentious because some people judge other people by what they do, how they look and what makes their molecules earns. but i have also learn that some of these people tend to pose as pretentious not because they want to but because they were just afraid to be judged.

i have learn that learning is an never ending process. we will learn.

i have learn that having a degree is not that important but what is important is we embody that degree.

i have learn that never ever drink when you didn't have that chance to eat your dinner.side effects aside from hang over. TERRIBLE STOMACH PAIN.

i have learn that being certainty is attractive than being assertive.

i have learn that i can live alone. literally. ALONE.

i have learn that having a boyfriend is not a scale or a measurement of how good you are or how beautiful you are because the real deal is being REAL.

i have learn that lies can turn bad things into good things. DETAILS: HIGHLY CONFIDENTIAL.

i have learn that its ok to shout or to eat everything you want if you want to express yourself.

i have learn that when you are writing a sentence always have a period to emphasize that the sentence is actually finished.

PERIOD

New for New Year

It’s been awhile since I have written some stupid and lazy articles just to fill up space in this blog, and by that, I apologize for wasting your time and effort reading my ”not so inspired” article last year. and finally to the people who inspires, hates and preserve me in their hearts, thank you and to some F**k you … But, all in all, I would like to acknowledged the people who embraced and celebrated the New Year and the New decade, it also means that some of us welcome NEW CHALLENGES , NEW CHANGES AND NEW CHANCES.

NEW CHALLENGES:

Really, I have to admit, last year was sooooo not my year!!!!.... All of my plans were ruined by my own mistakes and stupidity that makes my life a little bit Challenging. I don’t really know how it happened and for me, it’s so fast and a little blur. Last May, my papa (father) suffered form cardiovascular disease and then God took away his pain and finally rested. From the very first time of my life I have no idea of what is to what and when is to when, but, I felt pain and numb. I felt a circle of non-stop pain and numb in my heart and in my soul. I don’t know if that’s normal or what, but that’s what I’ve felt and( I don’t like it)from then on I’ve created this so called sadness and anger that eventually turned into DOUBT… little by little my emotions starts to clattered and ate up my faith… to God, to my family and to myself. Last year was surely a surviving year for me; I have to get up with a little faith in the morning, which is very difficult because I’ve lost it, the night before I sleep. So what I did was to run away, as fast as I could, (believe it or not I did ran) far away from criticism, from disappointment and from fear. What I didn’t know was I was running away from myself and creating my own criticism, disappointment and fear. I am terrified and alone, I was so sure that no one was comforting me, I was so sure that it makes me do things that I really don’t want to do.8 months later, I’m starting to fill the missing pieces, I realized that I did forgot what makes my family truly happy, proud and secure. I realized I forgot to believe that someday we will be very happy and contented. I forgot that even though that papa is not here, he always lives in here, in our hearts. I forgot that my jokes make my family smile. And I forgot that I have them. I still have my family. I know we may not be financially stable or perfect, but still we are family and I forgot I have myself to comfort myself, to love myself and to forgive my self.

NEW CHANGES:

I had received a text message from a friend telling me that change always starts first in our mind, the way we think determines the way we feel and influences the way we act, I certainly agree with it, but I think before we think, we always compare, After comparing and contemplating we decide, and then we change. Compare, contemplate and change. And it’s really hard to change if reality bites us because we are giving up our comfort of being us, our safety antics or very own selves without realizing it. Some of us compromise just to give impressions to other or to ourselves because it’s for their own good and some of us change their selves because that what makes a person worthy to others or some of us change because we care. What bothers me, are we just afraid of what is real? Last year, I used my deadly diet and rule was no eating at all except breakfast and a lot of smoking and in some way I survived my own starvation and lost at least 21lbs. in 12 weeks. .I was amazed simply because I don’t feel that my arms or my legs were waving or flubbing or something weird is happening without me seeing it. it feel so vibrant, I feel so good to myself, I really feel that I’m really healthy even though I’m really not, I feel that I’m not the talking pig of the class or a laughing hippo for awhile. It’s really awesome. And the best part is I can now see my self from my view. Of course everything is not free. I had to pay the price of being a normal size. I’m “Super hungry” And that’s the price. But what really questioned me is how far will I go? How far can I make this “vibrant and I can see my own thing “without hurting my physical body and not damaging my self-esteem? When will I stopped comparing? But I know the answers to my questions. The real question was what will shake my core to make me change?

NEW CHANCES:

“Die a hero or choose to be a villain just to live enough!” a simple sentence from the movie Dark Knight, that strike me so hard that it makes me think. Chances are choices. Choosing into something without risking is not gambling and not knowing of the unknown is not worth taking. Some of us will question my idea but come to think of it, if we do not gamble, make choices or taking risks, what are chances for us to win? What makes us worthy if we lose our game? Does it makes you a little lesser to others by losing or winning? Is that what makes us strive more or less? Does it qualify to our own personality? Are we all going to be a hero or some of us are villain? When it comes to life, even if we won are games, do we still to gamble again if we are winners? Or if we all have an ideas of what will happened to us either winning or losing, is it worth it to gamble? Falling or rising from a situation do we all have choices? Can we really calculate the probability or the possibility of winning? Is success favors the risk-taker? Or are we just afraid of losing what we have? Are you a hero or a villain? These are just my questions and I don’t really have the right answers to my own question but ill take my chances figuring out the answers.

try lang..

sa totoo lang, eh bobo talaga aq sa technology,na kahit computer ito, eh ginagawa kong text sa cellpphone...haaay,buhay nga naman..wala pa akong tulog simula kahapon,dahil sa pagkamangha ko sa blog,well,meron na talaga akong blog pero sa di ko maipaliwanag,nawala ko ito,eh,kamusta naman yun di ba?ni hindi ko nga alam kung ano yung nawala..basta nawala..hehe,well,try lang naman to,ika nga testing....sabi nga nila,"walang barkong nakakalayo,kung di itataas ang anchor"..anchor?...


try nga lng eh...